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August 21st, 2006
09:33 pm - Blue Like Jazz
So I don't know if anyone really reads this; I haven't posted anything in over a year, I think. But I rediscovered livejournal somewhat recently, although I still don't really read people's updates. Sorry. My attention span is not that long. And I still probably won't update often. But I've been looking over a book I read a while back called Blue Like Jazz by Donald Miller, and I'm remembering how much I loved it.
Yet there is part of me that doesn’t like it. It makes me think about who I am, and that is sometimes disheartening. It helps me stare my problems in the face and recognize the changes I need to make. So then I go back to liking it again because it inspires me to change. In a good way.
Anyway, here’s a section of the book that I really love, and maybe (if you happen to be reading this) you’ll like it to.
“What people believe is important. What people believe is more important that how they look, what their skills are, or their degree of passion. Passion about nothing is like pouring gasoline in a car without wheels. It isn’t going to lead anybody anywhere.
My friend Andrew the Protester believes things. Andrew goes to protests where he gets pepper-sprayed, and he does it because he believes in being a voice of change. My Republican friends get frustrated when I paint Andrew as a hero, but I like Andrew because he actually believes things that cost him something. Even if I disagree with Andrew, I love that he is willing to sacrifice for what he believes. And I love that his beliefs are about social causes.
Andrew says it is not enough to be politically active. He says legislation will never save the world. On Saturday mornings Andrew feeds the homeless. He sets up a makeshift kitchen on a sidewalk and makes breakfast for people who live on the street. He serves coffee and sits with his homeless friends and talks and laughs, and if they want to pray he will pray with them. He’s a flaming liberal, really. The thing about it is, though, Andrew believes this is what Jesus wants him to do. Andrew does not believe in empty passion.
All great Christian leaders are simple thinkers. Andrew doesn’t cloak his altruism within a trickle-down economic theory that allows him to spend fifty dollars on a round of golf to feed the economy and provide jobs for the poor, he means that you should do this directly.
Andrew is the one who taught me that what I believe is not what I say I believe; what I believe is what I do.”
The think about this, though, is that this doesn’t just apply to Christians. It applies to everyone. If you believe people should love others, regardless of personal beliefs, then do that. If you believe people should…I don’t know…be polite to their elders, then that’s what you should do.
It’s so simple, and yet I, personally, fail to do this quite often. It’s depressing, but at the same time it’s exciting- I can look forward working on doing what I believe. As Scarlet O’Hara said, “Tomorrow is another day!”
So, suffice it to say, regardless of your religious beliefs you should read this book. It’s quite good.
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June 25th, 2005
12:29 am
So, I'm back from Baylor and off to Florida. Woohoo. See you all later. Call me and leave me a message so I'll feel special. :)
Alan- have you sold those Coldplay tickets yet? Because Lauren and I want them. So...hopefully not. Sorry it took so long.
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June 4th, 2005
12:23 am - If I was a rich girl... na na na na na na na na na na na na na na na.
So far summer has been pretty good, despitre the second degree burns I recieved all over my body earlier this week. I had a pretty nice birthday. Mrs. Julian and some of my fabulous girls came to surprise me in Video Tech and sing Happy Birthday to me. It made me really, really happy actually. In fact, it was probably the best part of my birthday. It made me feel really special.
Rewind a few days- banquet was really nice. My speech was horrible, of course, because public speaking is not my thing. If I had lines I could have done a decent job, but, alas, I never thought of anything to say. I got a scholarship! A small one, but it was still great! Although I'm not entirely sure how it's going to work out. I think the Booster club is supposed to send me forms to fill out or something. We'll see.
Fastforward to tonight, I guess, because I don't feel like typing about South Padre. I already mentioned the burns, so add in the fact that it was fun and I renewed my love for tennis and I think that will suffice. If you really feel like recieving a detailed description you can ask me later. Anyway- my sisters and I made a valiant effort to begin our summer sneaking. After much frustration and many bog bites, we decided to retreat and regroup in order to improve our plan. The hope of tomorrow hangs in the air, and I can tell that we will realize our dreams within a few nights. Or weeks. We caught a spy at one point, but we took care of it. So no worries.
Right-o. I'm a really tired and don't know what I'm saying anymore. Tomorrow should be good. Half-Price Books-- I've never been. Huzzah! So on that note, I will leave you. Have a stupendous day. Give me a call if you get bored.
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May 17th, 2005
10:04 pm
"Nobody heard him, the dead man,
But still he lay moaning;
I was much further out than you thought
And not waving but drowning.
Poor chap, he always loved larking
And now he's dead
It must have been too cold for him his heart gave way,
They said.
Oh, no no no, it was too cold always
(Still the dead one lay moaning)
I was much too far out all my life
And not waving but drowning."
-Stevie Smith
*sigh*
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Current Music: Coldplay
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May 9th, 2005
07:08 pm - Someday I'll find my own piece of mind.
Whoever said the end of senior year was easy was quite wrong. Mine is sort of stressful.
The Keys to Your Heart
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You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. |
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. |
You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. |
You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance. |
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. |
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. |
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. |
In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily. |
Weird. They figure that all out by asking you a bunch of questions about animals. Hm.
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Current Music: Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat
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May 4th, 2005
10:24 pm - I ain't your hollerback girl.
That song has been stuck in my head for the past 24 hours. Oy vay.
Yay for quizzes when you're bored and too stupid to go to sleep.
Heck yes! I love him, dag. And that reminds me, I am so happy Scott is gone.
This is my favorite type of quiz--The "Would we be a good couple?" ones...ha
Alright! Give me a call basshunk!
And, by request of Steven:
Goodnight.
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Current Music: Gwen
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May 3rd, 2005
10:50 pm - You don't have to watch Dynasty to have an attitude.
Except for the Canada thing, that's not too bad. Finally! I'll get a "Jazzy"! Yes!!
I'll probably have to build some ramps in my huge castle.
What are things that society/media/world tries to tell us is truth? (Ex....sex=love)
I need examples. So if you have any good ones, please please please let me know. Thank you. And goodnight.
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Current Music: Prince
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April 29th, 2005
01:38 am - One flesh, one bone, one true religion.
And just like that....it's all over.
Well, it was one crazy ride.
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Current Music: Queen.
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April 26th, 2005
08:31 pm - We could watch the waves, we could watch the sky, or just sit and wait as the time ticks by.
Just to make you all feel wonderful, I thought I would post this thing.
Reply and I'll tell you something I like about you.
Afterwards, copy and paste this into your own journal.
Hopefully, I'll be able to think of something for you all...
So rehersal was fun today. I'm a little bit anxious about certain people reading my survey, but oh well. I've graduated and they've written my letter of recommendation. haha. But it wasn't a bad thing, really. Well, not too bad. So hopefully they won't mind too much.
The video was incredible. Kudos to Mr. Kevin Porter, master of UIL documentaries.
And now, questions from mi hermana. (I had yours typed up and everything, Krisitna, but my computer messed up and lost them. I was too frustrated to redo it and have been too lazy to relook them up. So...sorry. You can reask them if you'd like.)
1) Would you rather be a huge star on Broadway and only moderately like your plays, or be a small, nameless actor in plays that you love?
It depends on how much I'm getting payed. Or who I marry. As long as I have enough moolah to live off of, I'd do the plays that I love. But if not, I'd totally be the big star. Being well-known on Broadway has its benefits. The Tony's, nice apartments overlooking Central Park, Hugh Jackman, Norbert Leo Butz, and things like that. So....nevermind what I said about the money. I'd probably be a big star. And then, once I've gotten my apartment and my permanent place on the Tony's invitation list I would go to the little shows I love. And people would love me, so they'd come see them and they wouldn't be little! Problem solved! ha! I totally beat the system there.
2) If you knew ahead of time that any child you had would have some serious birth defect, whether physical or mental, would you still have children?
If we're talking about a birth-defect that would make them "alive" but they could never really live...like they couldn't speak or move and they'd have to be fed and bathed and everything by other people then no. It's not really fair to them to force them into a life where they aren't capable of doing anything for themselves. I wouldn't want to live that way, and I can't think of anyone that would, so why force it on someone else? But if the birth defect is just something like Downs Syndrome or paralysis, then yes, I would. Because everyone has value, even the people with serious birth-defects that I mentioned above. It's just that Down's Syndrome or paralysis or something like that still leaves the person capable of thought processes, so I wouldn't feel badly for them. If that makes sense. And having a child like that would teach me a lot, and they would learn a lot from their "defects," if you can call them that. Man...this was a hard question. I don't know if I really answered it. And if I did, I probably sound like a jerk now. But whatever. That's what I think.
3) If one of your children told you he or she was gay, how would you react?
This may make me sound terrible again. Why are you asking me these questions?! Gee whiz. Anyway. I would just be shocked at first. Then I would talk to them about how they feel and all that jazz. Then (I hope) I would tell them that I love them no matter what, and although I disagree with their choice (and by choice I mean the decision to act on their feelings. I think homosexuality depends on hormone-balances and such, so the feelings can't really be helped. I still, however, think acting on it is wrong.) he or she will always be my child. Hopefully, I would react with grace and class. I hope. Well, I hope it doesn't happen, but if it does that's how I'd like to respond. People are going to be so angry at what I'm saying...haha
4) Baseball or soccer?
..........What?!How can you ask questions like the first three and then ask this?! What the heck?! Seriously. Holy shamoley. Baseball.
5) While we're on the subject of kids, what do you hope they look like?
Well, I'm planning on marrying a devastatingly attractive man, so hopefully they'll look like him. Everyone talks about how you can't marry someone more attractive than yourself, but I could. I mean, this is the person I'll be waking up to every morning, so he needs to look good.
For those of you who are upset by the superficiality of that statement then here:
True hotness lies within. A man doesn't have to be good-looking as long as he has a good personality. A nice outer appearance is just a bonus.
That really is true. But I still hope my husband is hot. Please please please...
Well, thanks Whitney. I'm pretty sure I'm not going to have friends after people read this. haha
For the rest of you, if you want me to interview you let me know. Maybe I'll get around to it sometime.
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Current Music: The Last Five Years
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April 18th, 2005
06:56 pm - Golden slumbers fill your eyes, smiles awake you when you rise.
Prom was pretty fly. I had a great time, although my feet were killing me by the end. David loves to dance. Man. haha. But it was fun and I think I looked sort of pretty, so all in all it was a good night. And Livingston was super fun, even though I was almost killed. My dad is crazy on a boat.
On another note, I'm in love. Again. haha
Current Mood: happy
Current Music: The Beatles
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April 6th, 2005
11:17 pm - The kangaroo hop, the kangaroo hop.
Pride and Prejudice.
I'm not sure what I think. I've only read parts, so far. I prefer to watch the movie because, although it is sometimes boring, the book is far worse. At least the parts I've managed to read. Besides that, reading the book doesn't allow you to gaze longingly at Colin Firth.
You know what really disgusts me? Chameleons. Yuck. They sort of make me want to throw up. I think it has to do with their freaky eyes and weird toes. Ugh. Seriously, look at one and tell me otherwise.
On another note, why the flip did Boone die tonight? I don't know about you, but I am greatly upset by this. Something must be done. Psh. Why didn't they just kill Shannon off?
Current Mood: TOed
Current Music: The songs in Pride and Prejudice (the movie)
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March 31st, 2005
10:58 pm - Let me see your 1, 2 step.
I hate it when people are mean to you for no reason and don't apologize.
On another note, zone went well last night! It was nerve-wracking, but oh so exciting. Congratulations to everyone involoved!
I'm pretty pumped about tomorrow. The show has really improved a lot. It looks great. If you'd like to come, the performance will be at 5PM. But come around 4:30.
And just for kicks,
Your dating personality profile:
Religious - Faith matters to you. It is the foundation that you build your life upon. You trust that God has a plan for you.
Conservative - You take a conservative stance on most issues and aren't shy about saying so. Your political views are an important component of who you are.
Outgoing - You can liven up any party. You've got a way with people and have little difficulty charming your dates. | Your date match profile:
Practical - You are drawn to people who are sensible and smart. Flashy, materialistic people turn you off. You appreciate the simpler side of living.
Big-Hearted - You want someone compassionate, someone gentle and kind. A loving, nurturing person will fill that hole in your life.
Religious - You seek someone who is grounded in faith and who possesses religious values. You believe that a religious person can enhance your life. | Your Top Ten Traits
1. Religious
2. Conservative
3. Outgoing
4. Big-Hearted
5. Traditional
6. Adventurous
7. Practical
8. Romantic
9. Wealthy/Ambitious
10. Intellectual
| Your Top Ten Match Traits
1. Practical
2. Big-Hearted
3. Religious
4. Traditional
5. Outgoing
6. Adventurous
7. Athletic
8. Conservative
9. Romantic
10. Intellectual
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Current Music: Ciara. I don't know why.
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March 27th, 2005
02:14 pm
Elton
John
was
amazing.
Oh my goodness.
When he comes back I'm going spend $1,500 for front row seats.
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March 22nd, 2005
11:21 pm - All is fair in Love and War
IF YOU ARE IN ENGLISH IV GT:
Don't forget to bring your costume and things for the True Stories deal.
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Current Music: Ben Folds Five
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February 26th, 2005
06:06 pm - I love to hear the music; I've got every lyric down.
So a few years ago the senior class made a huge banner and hung it up on Kingwood Drive by the school. It read:
"Let's not say "like" so much."
I think our class should do one this year, but it should instead say:
"Let's not be so dramatic."
or
"Let's not take ourselves too seriously."
or
"Let's not avoid the truth."
Or something like thast, perhaps. They all seem fitting, don't you think?
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Current Music: Boy From Oz (<3 Hugh Jackman)
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February 7th, 2005
09:16 pm - I'm burning through the sky.
I am so happy!! Seriously. Here's the conversation I just had with my mom online:
JEggerstx: Yes!
kayayelewhy: .....Please tell me you're talking about the puppies.
JEggerstx: YES!
kayayelewhy: REALLY?!!?!
kayayelewhy: Oh my goodness!
JEggerstx: Yes
JEggerstx: Si si si
Lauren and I will be buying Freddie and Mercury pretty soon and I am so soooooo excited! The boys are as well, of course. And so is everyone in my family. Daddy more so because his decision made everyone else happy than because we're going to have two new puppies running about.
But yes. This was a great night!
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Current Music: Don't Stop Me Now
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February 2nd, 2005
10:24 pm - That's peachy for some people- for some humdrum people to be.
A while back Mrs. Julian told our class that it was silly and even mean when you think about it to write things like "OMG! U R the Sweetest Person Eva! Don't Change!" in the back of yearbooks (if anyone actually spelled things that way-as I'm sure many do- I would cry for them) and I couldn't have agreed more. What an awful thing to wish on someone! To never change! Ugh. And I've sort of realized looking back on it that I think that I've changed a lot over the past couple of years, thanks to school and theatre and such, and some of the changes were not for the best. So I decided I'd try and fix that. I wrote "Change!" on my mirror in soap in hope that I would see it every day and make an effort to do so, but I suppose that in the rush of things I never really look at it. So I don't think about it very often. But all the emo posts people are making lately have made me think about it more. And while it's comforting to know that I'm not alone in feeling that way, it's a bit scary to think that we all just sit around and think about how we're terrible people and never really do anyting about it. So, I don't know, maybe we can all work together to effectively improve ourselves. After all, it's a lot easier to get yourself out of a rut if there is someone there to help pull you up. So, yes. Let's all help each other change.
That's really all I have to say.
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Current Music: "Some People"
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January 29th, 2005
12:20 am - I hope you're as smart as my mom thinks you are.
So work sucked tonight. In an attempt to take out a bag of garabage that was literally as big as I am, I spilled trasy water all over myself. It almost got in my mouth. And I almost threw up. Plus, I was sexually harassed by this random guy who was there with his wife and family. I step out of the backroom to put something away and he made a really rude and disgusting comment. It was said to me, but not about me. I just walked back into the back room. Ugh. I hate that.
Anyway. People are funny. <3
I had some purpose in posting this, but I can't remember what it was.
I should go to sleep.
Oh! I just remembered what my reason in typing up a second post in two days was!!!
I found out today I was accepted to the University of Tulsa! I'm totally pumped.
Now I just have to get into their musical theatre department. Ughh....
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Current Music: Amber Drive (still)
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January 27th, 2005
09:39 pm - I hope your heart's as big and as complex as any Beatles' song.
I really hate computers. I had this long post all typed up and I hit a key that, for some unknown reason, made it go back. And, unfortunately for me, when I proceeded to move forward it didnt' have my post saved. My life stinks. Not really, but that's okay.
Anyway, let me try to retype it all.
I've decided to make the best of my present situation in theatre, despite my immense disappointment, and do the best job I can do. I don't want to end my senior year badly. That would just be sad. And, as I anticipate a talk with Mr. Seffield approaching in my near future, I am planning on telling him about how I'm feeling. Everything. I plan on being polite, but honest, about how he has made me feel for the past four years. Pretty much everyone is thinking the same thing, so I might as well say it. Perhaps Mr. Sheffield will be enlightened and maybe change his ways. I hope that I can summon enough bavery and strength to fight back the tears that I know will be coming so I can get it all out. It's a bit scary, but what do I have to lose? I'm never going to be in a Kingwood High School theatre production again, so I should just spit it out. If I don't do it Monday, I fully intend on doing it before the year is over. But anyway,I slowly beginning to feel better, and appreciate everyone putting up with me. In my opinion, my whining is a bit understandable, but not excusable. So I will be working on that, so I'm sorry if I snap at you. Even if you do say something stupid to make me say it.
I want everyone who made the crew/cast/and alternates that I am very happy for you all! It's going to be a great show and I'm really excited to see how it turns out. And I'm sorry if I make your costume and it turns looks ugly. Really.
On another note, dinner theatre is this weekend and I still have quite a bit of preperation to do. So hopefully that will all get done. I'm a bit bummed about missing the Tsunami-relief concert because I really wanted to go, but I'll get over it.
I haven't heard back from Tulsa yet and I'm slightly concerned. What if Mrs. Robinson or whatever forgot to send in the recommendation? I will cry. They're probably thinking "Psh! She's taking to long! She won't be accepted!" And even if I am accepted there's still the audition, and I still need to pick monologues and songs. And Baylor auditions are coming up too! Ack!
And then there's my English paper. Wow...I'm stressed. I think some of us should make a trip up to the U of H library Sunday because I need some research like whoa.
I love that phrase. Like whoa.
I was listening to my Amber Drive Cd (Not because I'm obssessed with Jason like the 3 billion other girls in Kingwood High School, but because I needed some mellowish music. And I'm infatuated with Brett, but that's beside the point) and I was amazed by the quality of the CD. They really sound great. I mean, I've heard it before, but I haven't listened to it in a while.
So I think that's really about it. Drama and stress. Good times. Sort of.
I need to read Rasselas and sleep. Ugh.
Current Mood: progressively better
Current Music: Amber Drive
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January 26th, 2005
10:04 pm - I feel bad, that you feel bad about me feeling bad, about you feeling bad
I have such great parents. Really. I love them a lot.
On another note, I hope things change during college.
Current Mood: better
Current Music: Ben Folds
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